been awhile AGAIN.

so ive been gone for a longgggg time. much has happened. guess ive been feeling a need to write after todays political science test, had that epiphany i mean.

ihavelearnedthatinlifechangeisanaturalcontinuumithappensphysicallyandmentallyalso spirituallythingsbecomedividedintotwomaincategoriesgoodandevillearntodecipher bothandactupongoodbutalongwithgoodcomesanequalamountofevilthosearethetests andobstacleswecomeacrossduringourlifetimesevenwhenthingsarelookingat its worst, justdonotlosefaithinthegoodbclifebecomesapersonaltripintheendandyouwillbe accountableforwhoyouare.


If you never questioned your beliefs, - you are just a puppet dancing to somebody's strings. If God had wanted your mindless obedience, you would've been created without mind and without free will. But you have both so you can come to God of your own accord. Just look at the lives of saints, - most of them had gone through a dark night of the soul, and that's why their faith was so strong. The path to true faith always goes through doubt. So ask those questions you've always been afraid to ask, and find the answers, and then your faith will become unshakable.
-very true statement thanks to facebooks, god wants you to know. lol maybe its in the bible, dont know. but in a literal context the words mean exactly what their saying.

will i be able to find a meaningful and true soulmate?

	The Hagall spread is a tool for revealing the path of spiritual growth in difficult situations. It is a favorite of mystics and those confronting a major life challenge. The Sola Busca Tarot is a color embellished reproduction of the only known extant 15th century Tarot deck engraved on metal. It is the choice of purists and those seeking a direct channel with the dawn of Western occultism.
	The card in the middle of the circle represents the core or central issue of the situation. Sesto (The Lovers), when reversed: Inner strife, frustration, suspicion, and disagreements in a relationship. Irresponsibility and indecision. Avoiding true intimacy in favor of lust. Unfaithfulness.
	The card at the bottom of the circle represents something you did to bring the situation about. 7 Anfore (Temptation), when reversed: Daydreams and fantasies brought into realistic focus. The contemplation of many options leading to a conclusive choice. Inner clarity that dissipates illusions and false choices. Remaining connected to reality in the face of intoxication, delirium, or hallucination. Under rare and extreme circumstances, may indicate the failure to recognize a transcendental spiritual truth.
	The card at the bottom left of the circle represents your beliefs, impressions, or expectations.Cavaliere di Mazze (Knight of Wands): The essence of fire, such a great conflagration. One filled with vitality and passion for life. A sexy and exciting person, daring in their actions, cocky in their attitude, and utterly without fear. Absolute sincerity, coupled with violent emotions that swing wildly from one extreme to another. Boundless creativity and lust for a change of both pace and place. The rapid approach, or more likely departure, of something that sets your world ablaze. Often suggests travel or escape.
	The card at the bottom right of the circle represents the most likely outcome of the situation given present circumstances. 4 Mazze (Completion): A chance to rest and rejoice, having successfully resolved a matter of great import. The initial success of a business venture or creative project. The blossoming of a friendship or romantic relationship. Conclusions drawn based on hard won experience. Spiritual, material, or emotional rewards for diligent effort. May suggest marriage, childbirth, or a victory celebration.
	The card at the upper left of the circle represents the spiritual history of the situation the things you've learned. Regina di Spade (Queen of Swords), when reversed: The dark essence of air behaving as water, such as a cold rain: A person gifted with both keen logic and natural intuition, giving them uncanny powers of perception and insight. One who easily sees the weakness in any argument, and savages friend and foe alike with biting sarcasm. Dry and vicious wit covering a hollow sense of isolation and dissatisfaction with life.
	The card at the top of the circle represents the spiritual tasks and challenges of the present situation.Deo Tauro (The Chariot): Victory through might. Advancement through bold action. Change through force. Order established through vigilance. A trying situation mastered by balancing opposing forces against each other. Discipline, individual effort and endurance will turn the tide.
	The card at the upper right of the circle represents the metamorphosis of the spiritual situation, and how your knowledge will evolve. Falco (The Hermit): Withdrawal from events and relationship to introspect and gather strength. Seeking the inner voice or calling upon vision from within. A need of understanding and advice, or a wise man who will offer knowing guidance. Personal experience and thoughtful temperance.
	The card at the left of the lower line represents the person or qualities that will sustain your spiritual journey. Tulio (Strength): Raw power. Health and physical fortitude. A surge of tremendous force. Recovery from sickness. Victory after apprehension and fear. The ability to face and overcome opposition brings the inner qualities of strength and forbearance. Delays and setbacks will be overcome.
	The card in the middle of the lower line represents the qualities that you express in this circumstance.5 Mazze (Strife): An intense struggle motivated purely by the love of competition. A state of seeming chaos driven by endless small disputes and complications. A hotly contested race, debate, game, or other challenge. A stressful situation that brings out the best in the participants.
	The card at the right of the lower line represents the person or qualities that will reveal spiritual knowledge. 5 Dischi (Worry): Hard times brought on by addiction, wasteful spending, ill health, or an outside event. Rejection, loneliness, and the need for comfort. May suggest unemployment, a catastrophe in personal finance, or a turn for the worse in business.

todays tarot

Wednesday, November 24 The Empress Earth Mother. Creation. A woman constantly full of new ideas and thoughts. A woman who gives new life to herself. A trail blazer. A female presence that is caring and motherly. Fertility. Birth of an idea or new energy. Family issues. Hearth and home. The need to focus on family. Feminine healing. Need to cultivate your own creativity. A woman unto herself, not dependent on a partner for fulfillment. A ruler and leader of others. Motherly-type. should i practice temperance the way that i a thinking right now(meaning like my old self kinda sortofish) Your Recent Past Seven of Cups Powerful emotions at hand. Many equal choices are at hand. A love of several interests with nothing truly special in your life. Power love for all things or more than one person. Someone that enjoys the highs of love. May be in love with the idea of being in love. Imagination. Fantasy. Passions not focused. Caught up in illusions. Your Current Situation The Emperor Male superiority and prominence. Struggle for personal and professional independence and voice. Belief in structure and formality in work and home. A strong male who commands authority. Fatherly figure who seeks to dominate all around him. Expected obedience. Laws and customs. Individual desires less important than those of organization. A male attempting to wield power after his time has passed. Stubbornness and adherence to social norms. No leeway for negotiations. Your Future Influences Two of Cups New meanings in relationships. Contracts in the creative arts. Union of hearts and minds. Possibilities to heal old wounds. New energies surging around you. Time to put creative thoughts into action. Good time for dreams and goals that have been put off to begin. Good time to begin work on new plan. All pieces are in place. First step to new future is at hand.

man i was thinking everything the future card says. meaning i was basically thinking about impersonal things haha.then the first 2 cards just called my ass out.hands down a slap in the face.

heres more of my favorite music currently..


lol,alright and girllll talk too.



girl talk again

back

‎"We built a robot and it's all like us, it hurt like usIt began to move its arms and legs, it woke up buzzing
It curiously moved about the room, we just froze in wonderNow it's out of controlIt's out of control, out of control"

--my favorite song as of right now. its by panda bear,called, we built a robot. fucking love it!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pwnefUaKCbc

--tightrope by janelle monae,ive been jamming on this awhile now but i dont remember if ive shared. and its been a longer time since ive been on blogger haha.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5OMpaFvTOFk

--this one is called wordless chorus by my morning jacket. another favorite of right now.

and by far my favoritist one right now..haha.

good ass djing wouldnt you say,especially if you listen to the real song

journey

will i be able to let go of expectations to take a step closer to God?

Your Recent Past

Six of Swords
Time to travel, perhaps near or to water. Move to a new area. A change of pace and scenery. A slowing down. This part of your journey needs reverence and thought. Pick up the pieces and move on. Regained health, but it's been a slow process. Take slow methodical steps. Keep your chin up; this is a time of recovery. Sadness, but not depression. Coping. Hope is renewed.

Your Current Situation

The Wheel of Fortune
The wheel of fortune is turning in your favor. Many projects can now enjoy great success. Soon be time to reap benefits of what you are sowing. A cycle is continuing. Success. Unexpected luck. Happiness. Something new is emerging and will bring new and exciting energy. Opportunity. Have faith in what is happening at the moment. Divine forces at work to bring good fortune into your life. Trust in the cycle of life. Possible new money on the way.

Your Future Influences

Ace of Pentacles
Abundance. Establishing a firm base for project. Money is at hand or in on the way to you. Take advantage of prosperity energy surrounding you to reach a financial goal. Your assets have increased. This is a growth period. Perhaps others are willing to help you reach your goals now. Materialism. It is possible for your efforts to be rewarded.

astral projection

should i learn to astral project?

	The Relationship spread provides insight into the interaction between two people or entities. It is the spread of choice for questions about partnerships, be they in romance or business. The William Blake Tarot explores the mystical vision and artistry of the renowned English painter and poet. Through rich interpretations focused on creative undertakings, it has long been the deck of choice for artists, writers, musicians, and thinkers. There are only a few autographed copies of the Blake Tarot left, so if you want one, buy it now!
	The card at the top left represents how you see yourself. Five of Painting (Hardship): Tangible difficulties, insecurity, or financial worries. Possible material losses, pain, or illness. Accusations and criticism, or blame from others. Exclusion. Suffering. Issues of support, loyalty, or companionship in hard times. In the creative process: Realize that the problems you are trying to solve may put you at odds with others who do not recognize your value. Be ready to grapple with personal blocks and fears, and to hear more from your inner voice than reasons why things won't work.
	The card at the top right represents how you see your partner. Lightning: An unexpected shock, upheaval, or stunning event. A burst of insight, or spiritual breakthrough. A close call. Release or liberation of energy.
	The card in the center left represents how you feel about your partner. Whirlwind: Winds of change bring new visions, opportunities. A god-send or stroke of luck. Outer turmoil concealing inner truth. Stretching your boundaries. Reaching a turning point. Unseen forces churning below the surface. A good time to honor your gods.
	The card in the center right represents what stands between you and your partner. Man of Painting: Getting on top of practical aspects of the situation. Taking a pragmatic outlook at what needs to be done. Using calm and caution in a highly charged situation. Taking a conservative yet colorful and personal approach. Total concentration on the task at hand. Bathing in the light of life. Not holding back from direct experience. In the creative process: Test and refine your ideas or product to see if it works as planned; be practical yet innovative.
	The card in the lower left represents how your partner sees you. Ace of Music (Passion): "The desire of Man being Infinite the possession is Infinite & himself Infinite." Release of emotions. Upsurge of creative power. Unlimited potential. Being carried away by your emotions (swept up on wings of song). Feeling a passion for life. Wanting to achieve the highest potentials in yourself and the situation. Following your bliss. Feeling a deep sense of grace and fulfillment. Vulnerability and openness. In the creative process: A passionate desire to rise above the norm, to soar to personal new heights of creative vision.
	The card in the lower right represents what your partner feels about you. Angel of Poetry: "Angels stand round my Spirit". Burst of imagination that requires action. Feeling aroused by creative fire. Profound inner realization. Communion with Spirit. Freeing the creative forces within yourself. Getting a glimpse of what is possible if you don't hold back. Opening yourself to new experiences, to being spontaneous and passionate for truth. Daring to be great. In the creative process: Imaginative insights are transforming your work, making it into a receptacle of divine truth and spiritual artistry.
	The card in the center represents the present status or challenge of the relationship. Forgiveness: A trial-and-error blend of creative solutions to a problem or complex issue. Keeping things in proportion and proper balance by making needed adjustments. Managing your time and resources carefully. Listening for inner guidance and tuning in to spiritual advice. Promoting forgiveness and healing, being compassionate toward those around you.

oct7.

DUCK SAUCE-BARBRA STREISAND

Your Daily Horoscope: October 7, 2010

Gemini  May. 21 - Jun 20
(Wrong Sign?)

Entertainment, creativity, and fun in general are the main indications of today's New Moon for you, Gemini. Whatever you're engaged in today will probably have lasting effects. Taking in some form of enjoyment or entertainment could be profitable for you; entertaining the client would probably land you the contract. Children may be involved in the fun today, and any romantic pursuits are certainly favored. In fact if you're in the market for romance this could be the beginning of a very lucky four weeks, during which magic can happen for you.

Compatibility: Libra
Mood: Helpful
Your Daily Lucky Color: Purple
Lucky Number: 91
Lucky Time of Day: 2pm

fortune cookie:

Your great attention to detail is both a blessing and a curse.

http://www.myspace.com/djheavygrinder
-djheavygrinder,shes pretty good.

words.

bio plasma
theosophy
mysticism
"spiritual hierarchy"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nu0PGd-IVNI


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P8c0ppYYT6o&feature=related


greys

godmsg:
You have these problems because you need the gifts they carry within.


i want be well by sufjan stevens(age of adz)


To think that I would die this time
Isolated in the room where the bed rises
Photographic ordinary people are everywhere
Extraordinary histories, ordinary histories, ordinary histories

I'll find sleep, I'll find peace, or in death you'll sleep with me.

To figure that it was my fault
Or so I've come to realize life is not about
Love with someone - (ordinary people are everywhere)
Extraordinary people are, ordinary people are, ordinary people are

Everywhere you look, everywhere you turn, illness is watching, waiting its turn.

Did I go at it wrong?
Did I go intentionally to destroy me?
I'm suffering in noise I'm suffering in - (touching ordinary body)
The burning from within the burning from with - (ordinary is scary now)
I could not be at rest, I could not be at peace - (extraordinary is scary now)

So do yourself a good, or do yourself a death from ordinary causes
Or do yourself a favor, or do yourself a death from ordinary causes

Endless lights prey upon the lonely, prey upon the lonely
Weightless lights, oh, I would rather be, but I would rather be fine

I want to be well, I want to be well, I want to be well, I want to be well.

And I forgive you even
As you choke me that way
With the pill or demon and the shrouding ?
Under conversation
In tremendous weight of
A crowd of ages outside
Dressed for murder

I'm not fucking around
I'm not, I'm not, I'm not fucking around

And shall I kiss you even as you take me that way?
With the pill or demon as my body changes
Apparitions gone awry
They surround me, all sides
From what am I seeing, only changes

I'm not fucking around
I'm not, I'm not, I'm not fucking around






godmsg:
You can worry to no end about what you don't have. Or you can marvel at God's breathtaking gifts: the morning dew, the sun, the clouds, the trees, the flowers, the birds. Could you create any of these? These miracles of life are always around you, ready to be celebrated, ready to be welcomed into your life. 




http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f4h8LXn9ix8
the xx-vcr(remixed by four tet)my new favorite and the best to describe my vibes haha

2888.

Your Daily Horoscope: September 28, 2010

Gemini  May. 21 - Jun 20
(Wrong Sign?)

You may have a glimpse of the future today, Gemini. It's possible that you may actually spend time trying to predict the outcome of events, but because the Moon is in your sign today, this information may come to you spontaneously. Expect to discover unusual signs, omens and symbols all around you. It's like putting together the pieces of a puzzle when you don't know what the final picture is, but you know the pieces are patterned in a way that makes building it easy.

Compatibility: Libra
Mood: Creative
Your Daily Lucky Color: Purple
Lucky Number: 88
Lucky Time of Day: 7pm

gods msg:

As your body needs nourishment - food, drink, sleep, so does your soul need nourishment - sing, dance, love. Life is not all work, work is not all hard toil. Nourish your soul with the food that is right for it, for it is the altar of your own inner temple.

Tuesday, September 28
The Hanged Man
Viewpoint skewed from what is normal or what others see. In limbo. Inability to move forward in life. Stuck. Need to focus on getting out of a rut and think outside of the box. Sacrifice of self. Devotion. Circumspection may be needed but remember to move forward. Indifference to attitudes and beliefs of others. A man unto himself. Ability to remain still in the face of adversity. A person who will not be moved until he is ready.

Your Recent Past

Queen of Swords
A woman that considers only the absolute truth of a situation without regard to mitigating circumstances. A quick and decisive woman. Someone able to understand the hidden motives behind others' thinking. A candid and frank person, sometimes at the expense of others' feelings. A funny and irreverent sort of woman that makes others laugh. You may not always agree with this woman, but her wisdom is absolute.

Your Current Situation

The Moon
The end of a major cycle, but things still changing. Mutable or dreamy qualities in relationships. Romance and communion of souls. Metamorphosis within self. Time to look inward and examine personality traits. Change is possible from deep within. Qualities of others masked for good or bad. Examine contracts and projects for hidden meanings behind written or spoken words. Heightened sense of awareness possible if involved in occult or magickal practices. A time to work with the moon's energies.

Your Future Influences

The Knight of Wands
Boldness and bravery to carry out plan. Fearlessness in all things business related. Ready to be the fighter in the trenches to make dreams come true. A champion of causes. A charming young man given to travel and adventure. A young man given to service in his community. Youth desiring recognition for bravery and service. A person that can be trusted to carry out orders.

Hermes Trismegistus

cages.

Your Daily Horoscope: September 22, 2010

Gemini  May. 21 - Jun 20
(Wrong Sign?)

There could be a powerful emphasis on romance for you today, Gemini. This first day of fall could be one of contentment and commitment. At the very least you may take advantage of this planetary event by forming alliances, or coming to an agreement on some important matter. It's also a powerful time for healing a rocky relationship. Try not to be too possessive or dependent; others need to be themselves; a gilded cage is simply a cage made of a different metal.

fortune cookie:

-man i hope sooo.happy is my name afterall too 

Your life will be happy and peaceful.

There is nothing you need to do to deserve happiness. There are no 'minimal requirements' for you to fulfill before you can claim happiness. You deserve happiness simply by virtue of having been born. That's it. Nothing more is required. Be happy. 

--haha damn, i just checked this out right after i typed and read the horo..nice coincidence with answering being happy.

love these kids.