so ive been gone for a longgggg time. much has happened. guess ive been feeling a need to write after todays political science test, had that epiphany i mean.

ihavelearnedthatinlifechangeisanaturalcontinuumithappensphysicallyandmentallyalso spirituallythingsbecomedividedintotwomaincategoriesgoodandevillearntodecipher bothandactupongoodbutalongwithgoodcomesanequalamountofevilthosearethetests andobstacleswecomeacrossduringourlifetimesevenwhenthingsarelookingat its worst, justdonotlosefaithinthegoodbclifebecomesapersonaltripintheendandyouwillbe accountableforwhoyouare.

If you never questioned your beliefs, - you are just a puppet dancing to somebody's strings. If God had wanted your mindless obedience, you would've been created without mind and without free will. But you have both so you can come to God of your own accord. Just look at the lives of saints, - most of them had gone through a dark night of the soul, and that's why their faith was so strong. The path to true faith always goes through doubt. So ask those questions you've always been afraid to ask, and find the answers, and then your faith will become unshakable.
-very true statement thanks to facebooks, god wants you to know. lol maybe its in the bible, dont know. but in a literal context the words mean exactly what their saying.

will i be able to find a meaningful and true soulmate?

	The Hagall spread is a tool for revealing the path of spiritual growth in difficult situations. It is a favorite of mystics and those confronting a major life challenge. The Sola Busca Tarot is a color embellished reproduction of the only known extant 15th century Tarot deck engraved on metal. It is the choice of purists and those seeking a direct channel with the dawn of Western occultism.
	The card in the middle of the circle represents the core or central issue of the situation. Sesto (The Lovers), when reversed: Inner strife, frustration, suspicion, and disagreements in a relationship. Irresponsibility and indecision. Avoiding true intimacy in favor of lust. Unfaithfulness.
	The card at the bottom of the circle represents something you did to bring the situation about. 7 Anfore (Temptation), when reversed: Daydreams and fantasies brought into realistic focus. The contemplation of many options leading to a conclusive choice. Inner clarity that dissipates illusions and false choices. Remaining connected to reality in the face of intoxication, delirium, or hallucination. Under rare and extreme circumstances, may indicate the failure to recognize a transcendental spiritual truth.
	The card at the bottom left of the circle represents your beliefs, impressions, or expectations.Cavaliere di Mazze (Knight of Wands): The essence of fire, such a great conflagration. One filled with vitality and passion for life. A sexy and exciting person, daring in their actions, cocky in their attitude, and utterly without fear. Absolute sincerity, coupled with violent emotions that swing wildly from one extreme to another. Boundless creativity and lust for a change of both pace and place. The rapid approach, or more likely departure, of something that sets your world ablaze. Often suggests travel or escape.
	The card at the bottom right of the circle represents the most likely outcome of the situation given present circumstances. 4 Mazze (Completion): A chance to rest and rejoice, having successfully resolved a matter of great import. The initial success of a business venture or creative project. The blossoming of a friendship or romantic relationship. Conclusions drawn based on hard won experience. Spiritual, material, or emotional rewards for diligent effort. May suggest marriage, childbirth, or a victory celebration.
	The card at the upper left of the circle represents the spiritual history of the situation the things you've learned. Regina di Spade (Queen of Swords), when reversed: The dark essence of air behaving as water, such as a cold rain: A person gifted with both keen logic and natural intuition, giving them uncanny powers of perception and insight. One who easily sees the weakness in any argument, and savages friend and foe alike with biting sarcasm. Dry and vicious wit covering a hollow sense of isolation and dissatisfaction with life.
	The card at the top of the circle represents the spiritual tasks and challenges of the present situation.Deo Tauro (The Chariot): Victory through might. Advancement through bold action. Change through force. Order established through vigilance. A trying situation mastered by balancing opposing forces against each other. Discipline, individual effort and endurance will turn the tide.
	The card at the upper right of the circle represents the metamorphosis of the spiritual situation, and how your knowledge will evolve. Falco (The Hermit): Withdrawal from events and relationship to introspect and gather strength. Seeking the inner voice or calling upon vision from within. A need of understanding and advice, or a wise man who will offer knowing guidance. Personal experience and thoughtful temperance.
	The card at the left of the lower line represents the person or qualities that will sustain your spiritual journey. Tulio (Strength): Raw power. Health and physical fortitude. A surge of tremendous force. Recovery from sickness. Victory after apprehension and fear. The ability to face and overcome opposition brings the inner qualities of strength and forbearance. Delays and setbacks will be overcome.
	The card in the middle of the lower line represents the qualities that you express in this circumstance.5 Mazze (Strife): An intense struggle motivated purely by the love of competition. A state of seeming chaos driven by endless small disputes and complications. A hotly contested race, debate, game, or other challenge. A stressful situation that brings out the best in the participants.
	The card at the right of the lower line represents the person or qualities that will reveal spiritual knowledge. 5 Dischi (Worry): Hard times brought on by addiction, wasteful spending, ill health, or an outside event. Rejection, loneliness, and the need for comfort. May suggest unemployment, a catastrophe in personal finance, or a turn for the worse in business.