a tear.

shit happened today to make this very true.

ive tried to find out from my parents what their take on marriage is. i tried to talk to them about what 2012 means to them. ive tried to even explain to them what my beliefs are. but what kind of answers did i recieve in return? so your just doing everything you can not believe what weve taught you, you went off and talked to someone else about these things and take their word for it. youve been taking drugs havent you. everything is in quran, thats all you need to know. you expect us to listen to everything you say when you dont listen to us at all. you dont know whats right. you just think your opinion is everything and try to push it on us. you have to do as we say because we are your parents. we gave birth to you, you are under our ruff, so you must abide by our rules. if she is not muslim you cant. so parents whats love then?are you telling me i cant think for myself, i cant have my own beliefs? i follow what i am taught no ifs and buts. follow you like a fucking zombie? i dont have a brain?there is nothing out their but whats in front of you and what we have to say and what we provide for you. you were a mistake we made. if i knew you were going to be like this i would have never had you.

wtf.right. this was everything i was told by my ammu.

sometimes i wonder if i was supposed to have been born in another family. but everything happen for a reason. im sure Gods biggest test for me is to deal with this as another obstacle in my life. it just sucks that this drains my energy. "parental power" is the biggest baddest and most powerful bad guy in my life. one of these days ill win but its going to take a minute haha. shittttt. this is a serious fml i guess. but ive learned that my mother is very close minded. im truly done with this nonsense. everyday i have to live and lie to them about who i am, i have to keep this mask on over my true identity. please God, save me from thi one day, but for now just give me the strength to fight through this. the love of my life and friends that i have now are ppl that i want to keep forever. keep teaching me how to get closer to you.. all i want to do is make you happy, because however i see it, your my true parent,physically,mentally, and spiritually. thank you for these hardships as well. ifit wasnt for the things youve put me through, id be on the same level as sleep walking.

Your Daily Horoscope: June 9, 2010

Gemini  May. 21 - Jun 20
(Wrong Sign?)

The planetary theme today could push you to stretch your range a little bit, Gemini. It's about having the courage to continue toward a certain goal even though the chances of success seem slim at best. Usually you have options, so that you can take a different route, or otherwise bypass the struggle. This time, for whatever reason, you may have decided to take the direct approach, or you found yourself in the midst of things before you had time to assess the situation. The good news is that there is help therefore you, and all you have to do is hold on until it arrives; there is no bad news.

Gemini

5/21 – 6/21

Overview

You know exactly what you really want -- it's something you've been wishing to have for a long time. You've likely been saving pennies, working overtime, depriving yourself of the most basic daily pleasures and flipping through random websites to find a hot deal. Today is a great day for you to find it, so make sure you have the cash on hand and you can do some in-person comparison shopping.